Know that you are not alone and try to feel the love from any supports in your life (people who know or even people you never meet, like movie characters, people who have passed, religious figures- anything that helps try to connect to) and ask for more strength to keep going!
When it is hard to feel and you have no hope left and cant rise up, please listen to Andrea Day sing Rise Up and know WE are rising up for you.
I Wish I Could Fly
I feel alone and scared~
For this world, I was not prepared
To deal with the exhaustion and monster in my head,
Intrusive thoughts swirl while I try to sleep in bed.
I am good at bottling it all inside,
And keeping it there, a safe place to hide.
My life resembles a roller coaster
Breaking through the “Life’s Obstacles” poster.
The highs and lows of the bumpy ride
Increase my feelings of being ALONE and empty inside.
All I can do is hang on and cry.
I wish I could fly away,
I wish I had wings to fly like a bird.
It takes superhuman strength just to get up,
I dont think I can do it, I want to give up.
It is often too hard to get out of bed,
I’m constantly told its all in my head.
I don’t have the energy and motivation to get dressed and showered,
My family says I’m lazy and treat me like a coward.
All I can do is hang on and cry.
I wish I could fly away,
I wish I had wings to fly like a bird.
I feel so much pain in my heart,
That I want to pull my body apart.
Everything goes wrong, nothing goes right,
Why should I stay alive tonight?
What do I have to look forward to?
Thoughts of myself, “who?”
All I can do is hang on and cry.
I wish I could fly away,
I wish I had wings to fly like a bird.
Any time I get the chance to socialize,
My depression steals my confidence and I cant mobilize.
I use all my energy to hide my depression
And sometimes the pain is so bad that I go numb.
I live in fear people will find out,
The shame and stigma eat me up from the inside out.
After my break up, my life was shattered,
No one seemed to care as if I never mattered.
No one supported me, like I was kicked on the ground,
I became empty, would my soul ever be found?
Thoughts kept telling me that I was worthless,
While the rest of the world continued their plans for joy and progress.
All I can do is hang on and cry.
I wish I could fly away,
I wish I had wings to fly like a bird.
I know this is not all there is to existence,
But without spects of hope and joy it seems like a long distance….
All I can do is hang on and cry.
I wish I could fly away,
I wish I had wings to fly like a bird.
Sometimes you wish life would come to an end,
But things could always change around the next bend,
Then I found the energy of the love and the light,
And it opened my heart, my chakras, and my sight.
I was able to look the universe in the eyes,
As it held me close and I could hear many byes…
From all the bad things in my life,
The wind blew away all my strife.
My old energy was washed and cleared,
Whatever was left, was burnt and seared.
I buried my painful past and power,
And mother earth and the sun turned it into a beautiful flower!
Old habits, patterns, and maladaptive skills went away~
Opening myself up for love each and every day!
My heart can see that wishes and dreams really do come true,
And I don’t have to sit on chimney tops and wait for my troubles to melt like lemon drops until I turn blue!
I am grateful to have found the universe’s consciousness and healing properties in my mind,
And I will turn into the universe’s healing wisdom to help me always be kind (to myself and others).
I feel at peace and my body is relaxed, why did I get so lucky?
I’m home at last!
I can fly, I have wings
I can fly away, I have wings to fly
I can fly away, I have wings to soar like a bird through the night’s sky.
And I can fly.
-This poem is looking for an artist to sing it
